WHAT IS IT LIKE TO BE A STARSEED? part 2

PART 2

In this section, I will describe life after soul memory activation.

The integration of new awareness—that you have chosen to participate in the grand plan of humanity’s evolution—happens gradually.

There is often a period of denial, a desire to return to how things were before—familiar and less overwhelming.

Once your Light Body undergoes more crystallization and activation, you can’t stop it, even if you wished to. The liquid energy flows through you like cold water. It’s constant. It’s overwhelming at first then you learn to live with it.

You realize you are vibration, and so is everything around you. Sometimes, you struggle to manage the frequencies you receive or what your energy field emits. There are nights when you don’t sleep for seven nights in a row, only catching brief moments of rest. This often happens when a new portion of Light downloads into your system.

Sometimes every bone, every organ in your body feel churning, offloading energy, recalibrating.

Sometimes, you can’t hear yourself speak because your brain feels like one big wave. Your ears ring non stop. Humming, long pitching, popping… Then it adjusts to normal levels but you still hear the white noise, like hear the song of the cosmos. Sometimes the high pitch squeak happens mid conversation and you have a hard time keeping up with the subject. You can just forget what was the discussion about it. Just like that. I do try to control and train my mind to better adjust.

At times, you may feel uneasy driving—I avoid it when I see shifting layers or dimensional splits. Instead of a straight road, I perceive something entirely different. This happens during energetic upgrades, but then you recalibrate and return to a “functional” state.

Others can unconsciously sense the strength of your energy field. If their intentions are inauthentic, they may feel uncomfortable in your presence and withdraw from interaction without any obvious reason.

Let’s say you were never the popular type before, but now it becomes more evident, with double the intensity. It’s not about what you say or how you look—you somehow “scare” them away. It can be both empowering and traumatic when you want to maintain a social life. There's a massive filtering process happening.

There will be either an instant pull or push, much like the positive and negative sides of a battery.

You also become more aware: who’s honest and sincere towards you, who’s jealous, who’s playing games…You read vibrations.

Your role as an emissary begins once you reach a higher vibrational state and your auric field expands, forming additional spheres.

This is where you begin to live the fantasy movies you once watched—only now, they unfold in real-time, and you’re the main character. What once seemed like fiction becomes your reality. You begin to see through the veil. All kinds of things…

You find yourself engaged in all kinds of spiritual warfare, protecting the sacred crystal within you—an energy source some masquerading alien races attempted to steal in a cosmic "crystal heist." They disguised their intentions as an activation, triggering what felt like epileptic seizures, only for you to later realize they were the thieves. In the aftermath, you were beamed aboard a craft for repairs, piecing together the truth of what had really happened.

THE ENERGY FIELD

I often kill the gadgets. The technology breaks, glitches, computer files erase themselves …Sometimes the battery or the computer in the hybrid or fully electric car stops working, the car simply woundn’t start. I personally shut down at least 4 cars. It happens then there is too much energy transmission outwards or amplified EMF field around me during the ecplises or geomagnetic storms.

Gradually, you come to realize that you are a symbiotic being—a fusion of human biology and brain chemistry intertwined with an energetic makeup and a consciousness that has lived across lifetimes.

I can sense the energy flowing through my chakras, noticing which ones are overactive or crystallizing further. My upper chakras are especially sensitive—at times, the intensity is so strong that it makes falling asleep difficult. The energy can surge toward my eyelids and ears, and when it moves inside my ears, it creates a peculiar ticklish sensation. And with these strange sensations, you can’t exactly turn to a regular person for advice. The upper chakras never truly close—the intensity simply fluctuates, it feels like the blow of air on top of your heard, ranging from a powerful “tornado” to a gentle “light breeze.” In my normal state, it feels like cool water flowing in gentle currents from the top of my head down to my face. It’s always in motion — it hasn’t stopped once in the 1.5 years since it began.

In higher altitudes, especially when driving through mountainous roads, the energy surges even more, amplifying the experience.

The hands can feel extremely hot sometimes but never sweaty. It feels like fire. Sometimes they are not heated but have more electro-magnetic field and then you zap everything you touch on certain days.

One of the most magical parts of the hybrid path is when you find the “like.” That unmistakable energetic signature — you can’t miss it.
It’s exhilarating. There’s often instant recognition when you meet another “alien” soul who belongs to your soul group or soul team.

I read these beings much more quickly than Terran (Earth) souls. There’s simply a resonance — a frequency — that feels more familiar, more like home.

In person, I’ve only met 3 or 4 true star souls.
Online, there have been more… but they’re scattered across the world.

I also notice the balance between their galactic essence and the Terran makeup in some people.
Some star souls have chosen Earth as their new home, fully embracing the human experience.
In those cases, the matrix of their field often feels more Terran — with only a small percentage of their original extraterrestrial coding still present.

Starseed Envoy souls like me are different. They are here on an assignment, the original Avatar body is in stasis until we return. And the longing to return home never truly fades.