WHAT IS IT LIKE TO BE A STARSEED? part 2

PART 2

In this section, I will describe life after soul memory activation.

The integration of new awareness—that you have chosen to participate in the grand plan of humanity’s evolution—happens gradually.

There is often a period of denial, a desire to return to how things were before—familiar and less overwhelming.

Once your Light Body undergoes more crystallization and activation, you can’t stop it, even if you wished to.

You realize you are vibration, and so is everything around you. Sometimes, you struggle to manage the frequencies you receive or what your energy field emits. There are nights when you don’t sleep for seven nights in a row, only catching brief moments of rest. This often happens when a new portion of Light downloads into your system.

Sometimes, you can’t hear yourself speak because your brain feels like one big wave.

At times, you may feel uneasy driving—I avoid it when I see shifting layers or dimensional splits. Instead of a straight road, I perceive something entirely different. This happens during energetic upgrades, but then you recalibrate and return to a “functional” state.

Others can unconsciously sense the strength of your energy field. If their intentions are inauthentic, they may feel uncomfortable in your presence and withdraw from interaction without any obvious reason.

Let’s say you were never the popular type before, but now it becomes more evident, with double the intensity. It’s not about what you say or how you look—you somehow “scare” them away. It can be both empowering and traumatic when you want to maintain a social life. There's a massive filtering process happening.

There will be either an instant pull or push, much like the positive and negative sides of a battery.

You also become more aware: who’s honest and sincere towards you, who’s jealous, who’s playing games…

For those who are most curious: you will find it nearly impossible to engage in sexual relations if the other person’s energy is anchored in the 2nd or 3rd center without expanding into the 4th (the heart center) and flowing upward.

Casual intimacy—whether for fun, relaxation, or even emotional comfort—no longer resonates. Love becomes the primary force guiding these connections. You value the entire process more deeply because you have already seen the parasitic attachments siphoning energy and the entities lurking, waiting to feed when two people engage from a lower vibrational state. Quite simply, you refuse to be tainted by it.

In fact, human relationships are the least of the challenges you’ll face.

Your role as an emissary begins once you reach a higher vibrational state and your auric field expands, forming additional spheres.

This is where you begin to live the fantasy movies you once watched—only now, they unfold in real-time, and you’re the main character. What once seemed like fiction becomes your reality.

You find yourself engaged in all kinds of spiritual warfare, protecting the sacred crystal within you—an energy source some masquerading alien races attempted to steal in a cosmic "crystal heist." They disguised their intentions as an activation, triggering what felt like epileptic seizures, only for you to later realize they were the thieves. In the aftermath, you were beamed aboard a craft for repairs, piecing together the truth of what had really happened.

Slipping Out of Body

Or, you might suddenly find yourself out of your body—I call it “slipping out.” One of the most unsettling astral journeys I ever experienced happened on March 31, 2025. I accidentally fell out, without any plan or intent to do so. Normally, when this happens, I don’t try to force my way back in right away. I’ve learned that if I’ve slipped out involuntarily, it usually means I’m not vibrationally aligned to re-enter my body just yet. Instead, I wait it out, lingering in the astral, go around my neighborhood, or fly somewhere else, then I am back shortly and the reintegration becomes easier.

But this time was different. I remained out for what felt like hours, though only 20 minutes had passed in physical time. The real challenge wasn’t just merging back—it was finding my way back to this timeline, this reality. For the first time, I experienced parallel realities firsthand. Each time I returned to what I thought was my apartment, something was off. The space looked the same, yet the furniture was rearranged, or there were extra pieces I didn’t own. Sometimes, the balcony railing was different, even though the patio furniture remained the same.

Every attempt to re-enter felt like stepping into an alternate version of my life. I would leave, fly around, and try again—only to find myself in yet another slightly different version of my space. In the regular astral projections, your surroundings would look identical to the physical layout.

On my final attempt, I found myself submerged underwater. Whether it was a portal, a time bubble, or some kind of energetic shift, I can’t say for certain. But whatever it was, it launched me back here.

By then, I could feel my body struggling. I managed to re-enter, but I couldn’t start it—meaning, I couldn’t wake it up. It felt lifeless and numb. In a last effort, I channeled energy, raised my vibration, and shook it awake—until suddenly, I was back.

It wasn’t exactly a pleasant experience…I jump start my body but I kill the gadgets.

Often the technology breaks, glitches, computer files erase …Sometimes the battery or the computer in the hybrid or fully electric car stops working, the car simply woundn’t start. I personally shut down at least 4 cars. It happens then there is too much energy transmission outwards or amplified EMF field around me during the ecplises or geomagnetic storms.

Gradually, you come to realize that you are a symbiotic being—a fusion of human biology and brain chemistry intertwined with an energetic makeup and a consciousness that has lived across lifetimes.

I can sense the energy flowing through my chakras, noticing which ones are overactive or crystallizing further. My upper chakras are especially sensitive—at times, the intensity is so strong that it makes falling asleep difficult. The energy can surge toward my eyelids and ears, and when it moves inside my ears, it creates a peculiar ticklish sensation. And with these strange sensations, you can’t exactly turn to a regular person for advice. The upper chakras never truly close—the intensity simply fluctuates, it feels like the blow of air on top of your heard, ranging from a powerful “tornado” to a gentle “light breeze.”

In higher altitudes, especially when driving through mountainous roads, the energy surges even more, amplifying the experience.

The hands can feel extremely hot sometimes but never sweaty. It feels like fire. Sometimes they are not heated but have more electro-magnetic field and then you zap everything you touch on certain days.

And the longing to return home never truly fades. The deepest hope remains—that one day, this special operation will finally come to an end.

Stay tuned..I will continue my story shortly.